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We are all working on our shit. I understand that you're working on it, probably better than you think I do. I know a lot about who you were, and the shit that wrecked you. I won't ever be able to clearly understand it, no. But, I think we can work together.

You kill people who ultimately deserve it, but you spare people too. I've been watching. You spare a lot more than you kill lately. i know that too. I don't like that you kill anyone, but I'm not going to make a deal of it right now. I know why you do it. I know how you feel about Gotham's justice system. I know how you always felt about them.

I've fucked up every relationship I was ever in. Every single on, Jason. I know myself very well. I'm selfish, and jealous, controlling and overly dedicated to my work. Well, I was. I'm working on that. I have not always been good.

I told you how long I've been looking at you for. Let me repeat it. I looked at you every time you looked at me when you moved in, especially during training. it was nearly impossible to get through a session. The nights were terrible. I barely ever slept. I may have fucked up relationships, but I've never turned my head or cheated. I always walked away. You. You have done things to me that no one else ever has, and I can't explain why, and yes, maybe we've only been together once, but this has been growing for a lot longer. You can never be a one time for me. I hope you're still at my place.

I do. I have a lot of regret from our relationship, and a lot more ptsd than you can understand. I don't know if I'll be ready to share it all yet, or even for a while. Some goes deeper than I like to think about.