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You've got several jobs. I'm sorry, okay.

[Dick goes to sit, and feels bad again for the upteenth time tonight. He's really batting a thousand. He knows that he's got to figure out how to handle this better, to come to terms with things and that it would be much better if he did it while Iggy was feeling more himself, and not like crap. Reaching out, he runs fingers along Iggy's face.]

I know, I need to be more up front and I will be better at that. I do have a few other things that I haven't told you yet, but right now they aren't completely my secrets to tell. They don't involve you though.

[rolling his lips together, he tips his head to the side and thinks about it, really thinks about it.]

I mean, I may have thought about what it would be like if we were together, but for the most part I tried not to. Yes, I get jealous of you actually having sex with other people occasionally, because I do like you, and if this was a normal relationship, I would have asked you out by now. I've had beautiful women, independent women who have careers in all sorts of businesses on my arm. If I trust someone, then I trust them. I would never be so petty as to hold onto money like that. You would have agency over whatever money you wanted. [this is a part that's uncomfortable, because paying someone to date him seems odd.]

You and your cam business would still be booming, and you could turn a wing of my place into a studio if you wanted, or you could still live here if you wished. It's all up to you. I don't own people. I have never had the taste for it. [a small laugh]

As for giving you a blow job. I shouldn't have said it the way I did... I'm curious okay. I want to taste you eventually. I want to put my mouth around you, and only you. I've wanted to for a few weeks. I thought it might make a good I'm sorry, kind of like make up sex. It came out all wrong, but hey, I did my best. I'm not emo though. I'm worried about you feeling sick. I want you better.