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[Feeling a part of himself return in that kiss, Dick finally feels like they are really back together again. It's exactly what he's been needing this entire time. He's missed her, like a keyhole misses the key that fits so perfectly.

Sitting with her forehead against his, he tips his head and gives her little tiny kisses.]

I think I'm starting to remember exactly how this works. I've thought about this so many times over the years. I always felt bad when you were with Hank. I knew I shouldn't think of you the way I did, but I couldn't help myself.

[It's still hard for her to believe that this whole time Dick has been hiding his feelings and desire for her and she gives him a few small kisses back.]

Does that mean you've jerked off thinking about me during that time? And then felt all conflicted after about it?

[Closing his eyes, he can't help but laugh a little and push his face to the back of her neck and into her hair. It's far easier to hide himself here. She would ask that question point blank. His arms hold her tighter to him.]

You are terrible, and wonderful. You know that, right.

[He moves up and nips at her ear, speaking softly.]

I did, all the time. I thought about you almost every single time.

[Moving back, he sighs.]

I said I felt bad, but I knew I wouldn't do anything to mess you two up, or tell you how I felt, so I didn't feel as conflicted as I could have. I'd messed things up. I knew I didn't deserve you.

[She chuckles at how he tries to hide in her hair and neck.]

Yes, I know.
And you're about to think I'm even more terrible because somehow I doubt I was the solo star of those little fantasies.

Did you ever think about me with Barbara? Or Jinx?

[Leaning back, he looks shocked and gasps. Then laughs with a shake of his head. ]

If I thought of you with another woman, that would have been cheating. I don't cheat. I--

[He pauses for a second, and bites his lip. There was one woman, but he'd almost forgotten that, and then there was the other night, the one he still can't figure out why he had the dream, but dreams are things that happen and no one can control them, can they.]

Understand, dreams are dreams and we don't have any control. I don't know why I dream some things. I swear. I had two dreams of you in a threesome, one was with a woman. I dreamed of a threesome with you, me and Donna and you, me and Hank. I don't know why. I mean, I never thought of Donna that way, ever, or Hank. It happened only in my dreams. Dreams are not real life.

[Now Dick is red, and talking so fast to get it all out, that when he does, he's completely out of breath and feeling all sorts of weird about himself.]

[Dawn laughs lightly and brushes her fingers over his red cheeks.]

Dick, it's fine. You don't have to be embarrassed about your dreams.
You don't even have to be embarrassed about being turned on by said dreams. I've had my fair share of them.

Oh? What spicy dreams have you had, my beautiful girlfriend? Who do you get busy with when you're sleeping?

Well let's see, I've dreamt about a couple of different threesomes. There was you, Hank and me. Conner, me and Donna. Me, Donna and Kory. You, me and Jason.

[A pause.]

And then I had a pretty fun one where it was me with a huge harem of Dicks.

[His eyes grow with every thought of her in those dreams, especially the ones with him-- because he now has to consider them. There's a few blinks at the last one, and then a laugh at the very last one.]

A harem of me? That would be interesting. I bet I had you very satisfied. I gotta ask though, with Jason... Did we both focus on you, or was it more? I- he's pretty young, isn't he?

Extremely satisfied. [She says with a grin and then laughs.]

Yes, I know he's young, so is Conner technically but I guess my sleeping brain doesn't care. And in the one with you and Jason you two were focusing mainly on me.

Well, Conner is only a few years old, but physically he's older. He's in his twenties already, so it's not that young. Jason is older, but I guess because we knew him when he was in his early teens, before he was legal.

[Dick shrugs. They are all good looking guys, and if he looked at guys for more than a hot second, he might find it intriguing, all of them. She's right. They can't control their brains, and who knows, now he might start dreaming it. He did stuff with Hank in the dream, and it wasn't terrible. They mostly focused on Dawn though, so that was wonderful.]

You are the one to focus on, I do gotta admit. I bet some of those were really great dreams. A house orgy by the end of it all.

Do you think badly of me now?

[She asks, tilting her head to one side to look at him. She hopes not, they were just dreams after all.]

They were all fun but I prefer the reality of being with you.

Hey. No. Look at me.

[He takes her chin and tips it up so that he can look at her eyes, and closely. Then brings in his lips to kiss her very softly. ]

You are every bit as amazing to me now as you were before. I told you about my dreams. We have strange dreams. I have nightmares that are horrible, and I know you wouldn't judge me and will still hold me when you eventually have to try to keep me from freaking out at night. Sleep isn't controlled by us. I want to be with you, and I know you want to be with me.

[He dips his forehead to rest against hers.]

When the time is right we will be together again, and it will be really damn good. I'm going to enjoy your body like you don't ever remember me enjoying it before. I promise you that.

[She kisses him back just as softly.]

You better.

[She teases and then closes her eyes as they rest their foreheads against one another.]

Do you have those kinds of nightmares often?

My sweet and beautiful start to every day, my hope, my dawn.

[Her name was literally poetry that could write itself. He remembers being challenged to write poetry once. Now he had a reason to. It made him smile to think about it.

Nudging her nose with his softly, he pulls her in to lean against him and thinks quietly.]

I do have them from time to time. It's not like I have them every night any more, but a few times a week still. It's rough.

[At his promoting she lays her head down against his shoulder, waiting for his answer patiently.]

Are they always the same or do they change?

[She asks and then backtracks.]

I'm sorry, we don't have to talk about this if it's upsetting or if you don't want to.

[Fingers stroke through her hair, soothing himself. It's easier to deal with the shadows when he's sitting next to light and running his fingers through her soft soft hair. Dick will never be able to look at her features and not consider them anything but exquisite and lovely. She will always make his heart beat quicker.

Taking a deep breath, he smiles softly.]

I don't mind talking about it with you. You're the one person I do want to tell everything to. They aren't always the same, sometimes I kill Jason with a bat as Crane continues to berate me like he did in the pit, but I don't stop until Jason's dead. When...when I was down there I stopped. I realized Crane didn't have power over me, and that's what got me out. In my dreams... I don't. Sometimes I kill Crane too. Then I put a bullet to my head and wake, sometimes killing Jason is enough to wake me. It's always bloody, and terrible and I always feel guilt, so much guilt.

[She's quiet for a long moment, thinking about his nightmares.]

What do you usually do to dispel the nightmares like that? I'd like to know in case you have one when I'm around. What helps soothe you?

I usually get up and get a glass of water, or walk around a bit. I imagine you can touch me to wake me. It will be okay. I don't get violent, I don't think. No one in the camper said I did, and they had to wake me sometimes.

[He looks at her, and thinks about them sharing a bed again and has to admit that he really likes that thought. It's been a while, and he knows that it's been good for him, but being with Dawn is everything he ever really wanted.]

Sometimes I can go back to sleep, other times I can't.

[The idea of Dick potentially thrashing about in the camper and falling off one of the beds is somewhat amusing but also concerning and she hugs him tightly.]

I doubt you get violent but I promise to try and wake you as gently as possible and when you're awake I'll try to kiss away the nightmare best I can.

[It wasn't as bothersome as all that considering he wasn't the only one in the camper that had nightmares. They all pretty much suffered from some sort of sleep problem, and most had sleep buddies that came and woke them and walked with them when they need to get out and get fresh air.

It would be nice to have someone there again. He hoped that Dawn wouldn't resent him for it eventually. ]

You're always the sweetest, and the best. If I ever forget to tell you that, I'm saying it right now. Thank you, love.

[Having her own nightmares means she would never hold Dick's against him, she understands how bad things can get at night.]

You're welcome, just promise you'll do the same for me when I wake up from my own nightmares.

How bad do yours still get? [pressing his forehead to hers, he tips his head to kiss her softly. He knows that coming back here couldn't be easy. He stops for a second and tips his head.]

You know, we can stay in a nearby city, one that doesn't have as many memories. I want you happy, so, so happy.

Pretty bad. [She admits and then kisses him back, as if that would help dispel all of her future nightmares.]

No, New York is fine. I'm slowly starting to like it the more I explore it.

Good. I'm glad that you like it here. I'm really liking this city as well. I am spending more and more time here. I know you want me to stay in Gotham, but it's nice here and there is crime fighting to be done here as well. I split my time.

[Dick runs his nose along her cheek in a gentle nuzzle, doing his best to comfort her and let her know that he is around watching over her, but not too close where she might feel uncomfortable. They both live with dreams born of a more difficult time, but now what's past is going to be what brings them back together and Dick can't be happier.]

I think we should take a trip to visit the Ballet soon. I'll get us a box and we can both dress up. What do you think of that?

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