I wanted to be a high flyer like my parents, or to work at the circus for a long time and then I wanted to be a superhero.
[The second part was as close as he could come to the truth, and he tipped his head slightly looking at Iggy, lips pushed to the side.]
While I do like you. I haven't fallen for you. I mean, it could happen but those things take time. I'm ... Well, I can see why we are having awkward conversations, yes. Except, I'm not renting you out. It's a part of getting to know someone.
[He's a person who is used to taking care of others. It's in his nature. He's been working on it, but at his core he will always fight the duality of his very male need to fix perceived problems, his vigilante nature to right wrongs and the side of himself that wants to take care of others. Dick, like most people is a relatively messy, complex human.]
[A soft smile.] I know. It probably shouldn't happen, to be quite frank.
And trust me, I know - you're not paying me shit! You get all this for free. If I'd known you were rich when I met you we wouldn't be talking about this at all, I'd be keeping you so happy.
When I was young and with my parents, I did what they did and loved it. [there's pride and a smile that touches his eyes, even if there's sadness there too.]
Yeah, I get it. We started out on how a relationship with you is pretty impossible. I don't plan on doing anything to forward any sort of feelings on that level, trust me. I don't care to feel more than I have to.
[a snicker] You're sick. Relax on keeping me happy, and just focus on getting better. That will make me happy enough and I take you out. If you ever asked me for something specifically, I think you know you would have gotten it.
I meant getting falling for you if it's not going to go anywhere, and I'm going to get hurt. Most people have natural preservation instincts. I'm being honest about mine.
I would too. I don't know why you think I wouldn't have?
It was until they were murdered. [He moves back a little. He's had therapy when he was a kid. It didn't work well, and the only thing that did was becoming Robin. Maybe he's got some emotional issues, but he's working on those too. Today talking to Iggy has been a disaster. Not telling the whole story has made it harder. He doesn't even know why he tried any of this. ]
I hear you. Okay, and there are times when I can be indulgent and other times when I don't care about the money Bruce has given me. It's not a thing. I use it when I want, or need. I don't think about it most of the time.
[a pause]
Maybe you should rest for tonight and I'll come check in on you tomorrow. Maybe you'll be feeling a little better?
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I dunno, I think that's why we've been having these awkward conversations. You've inadvertently fallen for a people-pleasing rentboy, my dear.
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[The second part was as close as he could come to the truth, and he tipped his head slightly looking at Iggy, lips pushed to the side.]
While I do like you. I haven't fallen for you. I mean, it could happen but those things take time. I'm ... Well, I can see why we are having awkward conversations, yes. Except, I'm not renting you out. It's a part of getting to know someone.
[He's a person who is used to taking care of others. It's in his nature. He's been working on it, but at his core he will always fight the duality of his very male need to fix perceived problems, his vigilante nature to right wrongs and the side of himself that wants to take care of others. Dick, like most people is a relatively messy, complex human.]
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[A soft smile.] I know. It probably shouldn't happen, to be quite frank.
And trust me, I know - you're not paying me shit! You get all this for free. If I'd known you were rich when I met you we wouldn't be talking about this at all, I'd be keeping you so happy.
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Yeah, I get it. We started out on how a relationship with you is pretty impossible. I don't plan on doing anything to forward any sort of feelings on that level, trust me. I don't care to feel more than I have to.
[a snicker] You're sick. Relax on keeping me happy, and just focus on getting better. That will make me happy enough and I take you out. If you ever asked me for something specifically, I think you know you would have gotten it.
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That's so dysfunctional sounding. I really think you should be in therapy, Dick. I'm saying that as a friend.
Bullshit, you would not have taken me shopping.
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I meant getting falling for you if it's not going to go anywhere, and I'm going to get hurt. Most people have natural preservation instincts. I'm being honest about mine.
I would too. I don't know why you think I wouldn't have?
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And I'm saying: go to therapy, Dick.
Because you don't seem that indulgent! You're gonna let me try on five hundred things and then just hand over your credit card?
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I hear you. Okay, and there are times when I can be indulgent and other times when I don't care about the money Bruce has given me. It's not a thing. I use it when I want, or need. I don't think about it most of the time.
[a pause]
Maybe you should rest for tonight and I'll come check in on you tomorrow. Maybe you'll be feeling a little better?
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Spoken like a true rich guy.
[He sighs and nods.] Yeah. And like... thanks. Even if you're kinda off, you're a good guy underneath it all. I do appreciate what you've done.
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[Getting up, Dick leans over and kisses Iggy on the forehead. It was a weird night and Dick is ready for a nightcap and to sleep it off. ]
I'll see you tomorrow, I'm sure and I'll bring you something nice. Okay? Stay gorgeous.
[Dick runs his hand down Iggy's body affectionately, and then wanders out.]