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[Fuck. Dick knew that he'd mess up this brilliant moment that they were about to have, one of joy and wonder. They were about to do something so perfectly special between them, but nothing full of joy seems to ever stay that way in his experience.

They both have scars they don't talk about and this is a part of the reason why. Hearing that tone, Dick knows what it is. He's fighting his own struggle for comprehension, time and space. Another might label it as fallout from his experience with death-- but it's time for that to take a backseat.

None of that matters at the whisper of Dick's name. Jason is his life, his breath and he will always figure his own desire for oxygen later. Panic for himself can be withheld while he sees to the person he loves first. How could Dick have been so stupid. Wickedly irresponsible... Ceasing to breathe, Dick focuses and hard. he has to be Jason's strength. ]

Deep breath. You're here with me. You're here with Dick. We're going to go and get tattoos so we can go on vacation to Hawaii. You are not there, you are with me and I love you. See our hands, our joined fingers. Feel the way my hand wraps around yours. Bring yourself back...Breathe back from that time.

[Swallowing, Dick closes his eyes and he runs his fingers through Jason's hair with his free hand, pushing through the curls. They resist his fingers, but he forces them back against the wildness, taming the unmanageable over and over to bring calm to the storm that wants to railroad them both in this moment.]

We're both here. You with me, and I'm with you. Our feet are on the ground, our knees are touching. Here. Feel my hands on your soft skin, your whole skin, perfect and lovely. You're the most beautiful man I know, and the one I want to live the rest of my life with. Look at me, see me, and not the past. You made it out. You are beyond that. We are beyond that. I'm sorry I took you back there even a little. It's my fault. Breathe with me jason.