I know what you mean. Sometimes when I wake up in the morning I still can't believe you're laying next to me.
[Jason's been better about that lately, though. Believing that he can have something good. That it won't just disappear. That for once in his life, someone will actually stay.
It makes him stare at Dick lovingly for a moment before he snags his beer and takes a long sip as well.]
Girls don't look at me, though. They're probably checking out your ass as we walk by.
Are you kidding? Those two girls right there at the bar totally checked you out the second you walked in and then giggled over you and then made faces when they saw us kiss.
[Looking over at the girls, Dick nodded his head at them and laughed. Squeezing Jason's knee, he slid his hand back and forth, feeling even more smug about the fact that he had the hottest guy in the bar as his boyfriend. Jason really didn't know exactly how hot he was and that never failed to surprise Dick.]
I love waking up to you, and I'm really glad that I get to keep doing it. You know, we should probably figure out where we want to start looking for places sometime soon. I love our little hotel, but our own place might be nice too.
[There's a quiet nod as Dick follows Jason's eyes while he takes notice of the girls that had been admiring him this whole time. The older male still thinks it's amusing that Jason never sees all the girls who want him. It's fine with Dick though. He's more than happy to always be the one in the middle of Jason's gaze.
Dick flips his hand and opens his fingers to link with Jason's.]
I was going to ask you where you wanted to live, cause you were pretty determined to stay close to where the action was. I was thinking somewhere close, but maybe a little closer to maybe the last hotel we stayed in, unless you like where we are now. There are some apartments around. I'm happy living exactly where you want to.
[When he was younger he probably would have noticed for sure, but these days it's different. That, and he truly only has eyes for Dick. Those girls don't matter to him in the least.
He links his fingers into Dick's, squeezing his hand.]
I'd rather be closer to the action, you know it. But... I'm willing to look where we had our last hotel. That place was nice. I want you to be comfortable too.
I'm comfortable wherever you are. You're my home Jason. We can look near there, but a little closer to downtown. Somewhere in-between. I'll keep my eyes out for something that will fit us both. I think all I want is a place to put a king sized bed and a bathtub. I want to take baths with you still.
[Dick brought their fingers to his lips, girls completely forgotten. He was way more excited about finding them an apartment. He was already trying to think about any real estate that he already might know in that area]
I want you to look too. If you find anything, you let me know. This is yours too. I want you happy. This started and ends with you.
[Mulling that thought over in his head, Dick sighs a little. More than anything, he wants to do this together. Leaning against Jason's fingers, he holds them to his face and rubs against them much like a cat would do while marking its scent. ]
Maybe I could find a few, and then get the keys and we could pick which one you like the most. That way you don't have to worry about being out and about too much. I mean, we come and go from the hotel and so far that's been alright. I imagine I can find us a few places to look at together.
Alright, I'll get to work on that this weekend, and we can go out at night to look.
[Rolling his eyes, he lets go and shrugs. He knows that Jason does as he feels comfortable. The people have shorter memories than he realizes, but Dick lets it go. He's only here to be supportive, even when it irks him a little. ]
I know. You really don't have to, but you do what you feel like doing. I'll try to find a place you feel safe at. That's important.
Yeah, no. I just really want a place where you feel at home at. I want to make this work for us. I want you to be happy, you know. I love you so much, and I don't want you to have any doubts about anything.
[Feeling a little silly, Dick pulled Jason back into his arms, and nuzzled at the side of his neck, inhaling the moment for what it was. He was excited for the both of them, and knew the art of compromise was important here. He wanted this to be absolutely perfect. He couldn't fuck this up. ]
Hey, we made it this far and you decided that you want to live with me after all, what more could I ask for?
[He leans in and kisses his boyfriend, lost in the happiness that they don't have to part ways and that they can still have this. It's a relief and Dick is looking forward to apartment hunting for them. He may have wanted to do it all with Jason, but this works too.]
If there's more you wanna ask for you can, you know. I don't want you to be worried about that shit. You can talk to me, ok?
[He just wants to put that out there, cause he knows how it is. He knows how it feels.
He leans in to kiss Dick deeply, moving a hand to slide up to his face. This is what he wants too, more than anything. He knows that now. But he also wants Dick to be alright.]
No, this is really all I want Jason. I want you, and not to lose you. I think that's been my biggest fear all along. You leaving.
[It's weird to realize that it was the truth. They'd both been through so much, and he knows that after his death and after finding Jason, that the scariest thing to him was losing Jason, even if it was only to another apartment. Dick had begun to rely on Jason's body in his bed, and being able to roll over at any time of the night to kiss him.
Dick had begun to count on the sound of Jason's heart under his ear when he needed it. They got hurt, he could handle that. They were very different people at times and Dick knew that too. Yet, more than anything he loved Jason unconditionally, and didn't want to lose him. It did something strange to him. It changed a fundamental part of him somewhere, and he was alright with that now. It took a while to figure out and accept. Dick accepted fear back in his life when he accepted a true love like this.
Running his hand along Jason's back, along his skin, Dick sighs against his boyfriend's mouth and smiles, kissing him with everything that he has inside him. They know one another, they know how to kiss to rob one another of breath. They're good at being together now. Moving in is only a further extension of that. ]
I know that being together like this has changed us both some, but I want you to know that I'm happy about being better for you. I am happy that you are with me, and that I love you. I used to think that my life was about so many other things, but I know now, what I want my future to look like.
Okay. You know I just wanna make sure. I don't want you to get frustrated or... tired of putting up with my shit. That's my biggest fear too, you know? You leaving.
I'm not gonna leave you, though, Dick. I've wanted this for so fucking long.
[He's wanted to be with Dick, he's wanted to be like this with someone. He wants a home, and a person to come back to, and wake up next to. He knows he was hesitant at first, but only because it all felt too good to be true. He was scared of going all in if he was just gonna lose it all in the end.
Jason has only ever left because people wanted him gone. He'd always rather stay.]
Hearing you say that means everything to me. Never thought I'd get to be with you like this. Now, it's all I want, ok? You're everything I want.
[He kisses back, arm sliding around Dick's neck to hold him closer and kiss him deeply once again. He can feel that love from Dick, and he wants the older man to feel it in him too.]
I have plenty of shit to put up with too. I don't want you to get tired of it. I think we both share a lot of the same fears. I'm not going anywhere this time. I've wanted this, you. I've wanted exactly you for so long. You fit every part of me in ways I never realized I needed until now.
[How many times did he try to find the right person to fit him. Dick could never fix himself enough to work it out with any one else. Dying helped, but it's also Jason. In Jason alone he's found the one person who gets him better than anyone else. He found a person to confide in. After opening up a little, and letting himself go, he found that Jason accepted all sides of him.
He even takes the fear that Dick has in stride, because they share it. They both have love so deep. It overwhelms Dick at times to think that Jason loves him as much as he does. He doesn't feel worthy of such a wonderful person or love, but when they're kissing and he feels Jason's arms so tight around him, he knows that there's nowhere else in this world that he'd rather be. He can feel the beat of their hearts, and the love that flows between them.
He whispers the words I love you over and over between their lips, in little tiny kisses and tugs on Jason's lips. ]
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[Jason's been better about that lately, though. Believing that he can have something good. That it won't just disappear. That for once in his life, someone will actually stay.
It makes him stare at Dick lovingly for a moment before he snags his beer and takes a long sip as well.]
Girls don't look at me, though. They're probably checking out your ass as we walk by.
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[Looking over at the girls, Dick nodded his head at them and laughed. Squeezing Jason's knee, he slid his hand back and forth, feeling even more smug about the fact that he had the hottest guy in the bar as his boyfriend. Jason really didn't know exactly how hot he was and that never failed to surprise Dick.]
I love waking up to you, and I'm really glad that I get to keep doing it. You know, we should probably figure out where we want to start looking for places sometime soon. I love our little hotel, but our own place might be nice too.
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[He looks over at the girls as well and notices that they really are looking at the two of them.
He laughs a little, putting his hand over Dick's and squeezes it.]
Yeah, I wouldn't mind it if we start to look for our own place. Where were you thinking of looking?
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Dick flips his hand and opens his fingers to link with Jason's.]
I was going to ask you where you wanted to live, cause you were pretty determined to stay close to where the action was. I was thinking somewhere close, but maybe a little closer to maybe the last hotel we stayed in, unless you like where we are now. There are some apartments around. I'm happy living exactly where you want to.
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He links his fingers into Dick's, squeezing his hand.]
I'd rather be closer to the action, you know it. But... I'm willing to look where we had our last hotel. That place was nice. I want you to be comfortable too.
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[Dick brought their fingers to his lips, girls completely forgotten. He was way more excited about finding them an apartment. He was already trying to think about any real estate that he already might know in that area]
I want you to look too. If you find anything, you let me know. This is yours too. I want you happy. This started and ends with you.
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[He snorts softly, running his thumb along Dick's cheek when he kisses his fingers.]
But I can look with you. Together. If you think it's safe. Not really sure how all out in the open I can be just yet.
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Maybe I could find a few, and then get the keys and we could pick which one you like the most. That way you don't have to worry about being out and about too much. I mean, we come and go from the hotel and so far that's been alright. I imagine I can find us a few places to look at together.
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[He says with slight amusement as he watches Dick. He's pretty sure Dick has noticed that by now.]
But yeah, that would be cool. Find a few and we'll look at em together?
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[Rolling his eyes, he lets go and shrugs. He knows that Jason does as he feels comfortable. The people have shorter memories than he realizes, but Dick lets it go. He's only here to be supportive, even when it irks him a little. ]
I know. You really don't have to, but you do what you feel like doing. I'll try to find a place you feel safe at. That's important.
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Okay.... you sure that's ok? You seem a little put off by it. I'm not really sure which part, though.
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[Feeling a little silly, Dick pulled Jason back into his arms, and nuzzled at the side of his neck, inhaling the moment for what it was. He was excited for the both of them, and knew the art of compromise was important here. He wanted this to be absolutely perfect. He couldn't fuck this up. ]
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[He moves back into Dick's arms easily, his shoulders relaxing once again.]
I know you try to understand. Even if it's hard sometimes.
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[He leans in and kisses his boyfriend, lost in the happiness that they don't have to part ways and that they can still have this. It's a relief and Dick is looking forward to apartment hunting for them. He may have wanted to do it all with Jason, but this works too.]
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[He just wants to put that out there, cause he knows how it is. He knows how it feels.
He leans in to kiss Dick deeply, moving a hand to slide up to his face. This is what he wants too, more than anything. He knows that now. But he also wants Dick to be alright.]
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[It's weird to realize that it was the truth. They'd both been through so much, and he knows that after his death and after finding Jason, that the scariest thing to him was losing Jason, even if it was only to another apartment. Dick had begun to rely on Jason's body in his bed, and being able to roll over at any time of the night to kiss him.
Dick had begun to count on the sound of Jason's heart under his ear when he needed it. They got hurt, he could handle that. They were very different people at times and Dick knew that too. Yet, more than anything he loved Jason unconditionally, and didn't want to lose him. It did something strange to him. It changed a fundamental part of him somewhere, and he was alright with that now. It took a while to figure out and accept. Dick accepted fear back in his life when he accepted a true love like this.
Running his hand along Jason's back, along his skin, Dick sighs against his boyfriend's mouth and smiles, kissing him with everything that he has inside him. They know one another, they know how to kiss to rob one another of breath. They're good at being together now. Moving in is only a further extension of that. ]
I know that being together like this has changed us both some, but I want you to know that I'm happy about being better for you. I am happy that you are with me, and that I love you. I used to think that my life was about so many other things, but I know now, what I want my future to look like.
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I'm not gonna leave you, though, Dick. I've wanted this for so fucking long.
[He's wanted to be with Dick, he's wanted to be like this with someone. He wants a home, and a person to come back to, and wake up next to. He knows he was hesitant at first, but only because it all felt too good to be true. He was scared of going all in if he was just gonna lose it all in the end.
Jason has only ever left because people wanted him gone. He'd always rather stay.]
Hearing you say that means everything to me. Never thought I'd get to be with you like this. Now, it's all I want, ok? You're everything I want.
[He kisses back, arm sliding around Dick's neck to hold him closer and kiss him deeply once again. He can feel that love from Dick, and he wants the older man to feel it in him too.]
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[How many times did he try to find the right person to fit him. Dick could never fix himself enough to work it out with any one else. Dying helped, but it's also Jason. In Jason alone he's found the one person who gets him better than anyone else. He found a person to confide in. After opening up a little, and letting himself go, he found that Jason accepted all sides of him.
He even takes the fear that Dick has in stride, because they share it. They both have love so deep. It overwhelms Dick at times to think that Jason loves him as much as he does. He doesn't feel worthy of such a wonderful person or love, but when they're kissing and he feels Jason's arms so tight around him, he knows that there's nowhere else in this world that he'd rather be. He can feel the beat of their hearts, and the love that flows between them.
He whispers the words I love you over and over between their lips, in little tiny kisses and tugs on Jason's lips. ]